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“People were always getting ready for tomorrow. I didn’t believe in that. Tomorrow wasn’t getting ready for them. It didn’t even know they were there.” ― Cormac McCarthy, The Road.
I used to be good at pat answers. I was a professional pat-answer-guy. Like when someone would ask me what I’m up to, I’d say, “I’m getting ready to (insert life goal or ambition here).” I was always “getting ready” for the next big thing when in reality I was often too afraid of failure or whatever it was that kept me from the DOING to actually go for it. But tomorrow waits for no one. Tomorrow is a relentless question that needs answering every day. For me, “tomorrow” easily becomes “next week”, or “in a few months”, or “maybe next year”. Before you know it, life has passed by like the blur of a train.
Many of you have reached out to me over the last few weeks to check in, to see what I’m up to. The train’s been on the move for a while now, so here’s a little “that guy we saw one time at a concert, what’s-his-name…what’s he up to?” UPDATE.
First, let me fill in some gaps.
In September of 2011, after nearly a decade of local church work, I decided that the little nagging voice within calling me to the road couldn’t be ignored any longer. With the full support of my wife and my local church (Radius Lexington), we began the process of discovering what that “calling” would be…an ambitious 1st step to record a full-length album of music <gulp>, followed by a commitment to leave my full-time job and travel the country to play music for anyone who would listen <even bigger GULP>, and then, a move to a new state <emoji w/ steam emanating from ears, tears, wincing>.
It hasn’t all gone as planned…sleepless nights, pressure like never before on my marriage, navigating schools and new friends, praying like mad for opportunities, leaving my family for weeks on end, dangling on the edge of hope and utter failure. I’ve also experienced profound grace and a renewed understanding of the Kingdom with complete strangers, I’ve had providential encounters that have left me weeping, seen provision come in the 11th hour.
Along the way, I’ve had the joy of taking in this beautiful country’s landscape from the silent confines of my Honda Element one state at a time, one 2-month tour at a time, one 30 hour stretch at a time. There’s not enough time to tell you about all of the life changing encounters, the faith-building moments and the Arizona sunrises.
In March of this year, I returned home from a trip that took me from Florida to Canada and back in 4 weeks. In my car. By myself. I was exhausted, emotionally, physically, mentally, spiritually. Emerging from the haze of tour is like waking up in a field and not knowing how you got there. It takes a while to feel and be normal again.
And while the traveling was very fruitful in many ways, I couldn’t begin to imagine the months of preparation it would take to book another trip. I couldn’t imagine leaving my elementary school kids and my wife for another second. I even started recording a new album because I literally didn’t know what else to do.
So I stopped, took a break, gathered my thoughts, prayed, panicked, rode my motorcycle, spent time with friends (repeat).
Through an unforeseen turn of events, I was offered a job at a local church just down the street from my house. A job coordinating music for a church that my family had quietly attended for 2 years. A job I inherited from my mother-in-law, who, around our house, is affectionately known as Mimi. A job where the people are encouraging and the work is steady. A job where they want me to travel when I want to and continue writing and making music.
So yeah, that’s where things are with “what’s his name.” I’m still here, doing the quiet little things I love, attending my kids events, taking my son fishing and traveling every now and then.
My next “tomorrow” is to finish the EP I started in Nashville, to get the courage to book another few weeks on the road in the Spring of 2015 and hopefully bump into some of you along the way. Thanks for your support and prayers over the last few years, for taking the time to listen to my songs, and for sending me little notes of encouragement every now and then.
I’ll keep you posted as too my new recordings (and the Kickstarter that will help fund it’s completion) as well as future tour dates in the coming weeks. Thanks for your friendship and thanks for listening.
Staying in the Arms,